Abu Za3tar!

Ya Abu Za3tar! Shoo betsawi???

Akram is one of my colleagues and friend in my beloved company "Wain"
Since I'm not that type of person who enjoy life to the max, he made sure that I leave 2009 with unforgettable events :)

A lot of scenarios occurred throughout the year, but mainly two events were the greatest ever.

Catastrophe #1
[Safety Team 1 Hour membership]



My company has a very professional safety team (Ta7ayatee Abul Masri); yet this team also enlist 2 employees from each department, for a very strange timing, both employees of my department were going in a long vacation, so looking around for someone who never says no to anybody, my colleague asked me to take her place for one month, "All what you have to do is put the Walki Talki on your desk and say Hello each morning" I mean how hard this can be, so I accepted directly.

The day after, which is the official day for me as a safety member, the official safety guy installed the Walki Talki device on my desk, "Just press on this button each morning and say Hi I am here"; fair enough, should be very easy.

1 hour later....

Akram passed by my desk, "Hey! what the hell is that doing on your desk?" after telling the story, he started to play with the tuning button, "Akram 7abibi la tel3ab fil tuning, ma ba3raf kaif ast3melha!" {I shouldn't said that by the way}


Akram: "Man using the device is easy... watch and learn...", Akram pressed the talk button and...." Security, Security!"
Security guy: "Roger, this is security what's up?"
Akram: "el 7ago! Fee 7areega gad eddenya!!!"
Security guy: "What!!! Where? Please repeat!"
Third Guy called Tariq: "This is Tariq...Please repeat" {he shouldn't said that too}
Akram: "Dear Tariq, please repeat your fire note, where is the fire?"
Tariq shocked and silenced by that comment "....."

Will, fortunately the safety team had the doubt that someone was bluffing and came to the newest safety member ME!

You can imagine how they scolded us, I really felt like an insect that time!
And that marked my 1 hour safety team membership which I actually was kicked out for ever I guess.
Thanks Akram, keep them coming!!!

Catastrophe #2

Aqaba Visit

I believe this needs a new post:)

Trapped

Life is but a journey!
Whether I accept this or not, it is reality.
Any journey can end up in a massive failure or a great success, it all depends on how one chooses the path at each intersection he/she crosses.

For the time being I feel I have been Trapped in a very difficult intersection, though this entrapment feels different and scarier than ever! Feels like I couldn't go on with my journey anymore, many wrong decisions I've taken along the time and seems it all appeared before me at this moment.

I always seem to get attracted to people or things I shouldn't, there are things I can't do, there are people who don't like me as much I like them; being very sensitive also is gonna kill me, and whatever I do to stop being so, just never worked :(

I really feel like going into a long journey with a person I truly love who also shares this feeling, but this is no more than a dream or thought that cross my mind each time I go to sleep.

I can't blame anyone who just sees my feelings as a drama and get depressed by it, so I apologize, I don't speak to anyone of my deep emotional thoughts so I try to just express it in a place where I guess no one will find it that's all. (Except one friend of course who's gonna tell me to quit being Drama Queen!)

I'm not the type who only see a dark side of life; btw, I had some great times with my friends last year, especially my Aqaba visit :) That was one trip I wished it never ended... Mr. Abu Za3tar nearly got us jailed at that time :-)

I really love my family, but to be honest, being responsible while still young doesn't give you an advantage in life other than getting older and losing any interest in keep going on, so I will try to be useful in life as much as I can, work hard, support my family and keep people around me happy and most important
"Keep my troubles to my self"

Don't lose yourself for...other people

What's the matter? You look rather sad today?
.......
It seems you don't wish to talk about it, will... OK see ya and hope things get better!

..{Wait! don't go} that's what I kept jailed inside my heart.

I hate when I have a problem and can't talk about it with other people, it just becomes an enormous burden that crushes ones heart.

When can I become like other people and just figure out that people around me are just passengers sitting beside me in this train of life, they don't care about me as much I do for them, which is stupidity as seen by many if not all people, but I can't help stop caring about others and consider them close to my heart!

Anyway, a friend told me today she was like this in the past and then she adapted to the situation and never got caught in this trap again.

Time seems the old, good, hard friend which just wash up all this mess. Though I wish things didn't went this way, but life is not a good dream, and we need to adapt or we will lose ourselves for ... other people