Don't lose yourself for...other people

What's the matter? You look rather sad today?
.......
It seems you don't wish to talk about it, will... OK see ya and hope things get better!

..{Wait! don't go} that's what I kept jailed inside my heart.

I hate when I have a problem and can't talk about it with other people, it just becomes an enormous burden that crushes ones heart.

When can I become like other people and just figure out that people around me are just passengers sitting beside me in this train of life, they don't care about me as much I do for them, which is stupidity as seen by many if not all people, but I can't help stop caring about others and consider them close to my heart!

Anyway, a friend told me today she was like this in the past and then she adapted to the situation and never got caught in this trap again.

Time seems the old, good, hard friend which just wash up all this mess. Though I wish things didn't went this way, but life is not a good dream, and we need to adapt or we will lose ourselves for ... other people

Flu incidents

Since people are getting more nervous on the flu incidents, I liked to share the following stories which might help on relieving a bit:

- Many of relatives got the flu and all of them are fine
- My cousin took her two Childs a week ago to examine them, when the nurse came to her she said that the test results were "Positive", my cousin jumped of joy and thanked Allah, the nurse was astonished and told her that she had a very strong faith:"This is the first time I see a mother that has a strong faith, good for you", "Strong faith?" my cousin wondered, ooops, her children got swine flu but 7amdo lillah they are fine now
- A relative of mine who already have asthma (ربو) and he also survived

Anyway, we are going to die sooner or later, so just take care of your personal hygiene and leave the worrying part behind.

Requiem for the lost ones

Waiting this Thursday night to end, strange heavy feeling seems to be overwhelming me.
Today was unpleasant for me at all :( Though, something great happened as two of my friends who resigned due to a conflict with their manager came back to work as they got another chance from the CEO, long story but what matters that it ended somewhat with the least trouble possible.

Why did my day is unpleasant then?
I guess the following points were behind it:

1. It seems I lost control of my actions, conversation somewhat, and said things maybe I should've just kept to myself.
2. Had a business meeting where we signed , will let's call it a paper to finalize a deal that might crash the company @160KM/Hr into a concrete wall! The kind of meeting where big boss from each company sign some papers and shake hands and of course get some cam shooting and unnecessary hypocritical comments and yellow smiles.


3. Following our meeting was a business lunch! continuing our yellow smiles we went to Burj El Hamam restaurant; it is a very nice one with excellent food and service; thus I felt like being punched in the face when I saw some ladies in their 40's asking the waiter for wine!!! "Hey, I said white wine not red wine!" one of them shouted. What the hell I'm doing here? I shouldn't be in a restaurant that serves alcohol in the first place no matter what! a'7777 this one sat7atni men 7ali

4. Felt enni kteer zanna'7t elyoum; you know when you say or do things that you usually don't do or say; and just seconds after, you ask yourself: "Why I said or did that?" Too frustrating, I felt I made people I care for annoyed, worst thing I could imagine to do to anybody, so how should I feel if I did it to them?


5. Felt that someone really didn't want to see me at all or even talk to me; a person I would enjoy my times just by remembering him/her; Ok it's her.

I hate when a person feels he lost control due pressure or any reason else; how come I'm writing this and listening to "The Final Countdown"? I shouldn't be doing this if I was to take the path I chose for my self! But the problem that loneliness is very creepy, and having all my friends abroad makes things even more complicated; finding new friends will help, right? Will, it's not that there are no friends in the company, but it seems once we are off working hours they have their other life, friends and activities; pushing myself to that life is not my style and will never do it.

a'777777777777777, mesh 3aref shoo a3aml? :(
Allah yesle7 el a7wal......
Ya rab

Please Keep Jordan Safe

Unfortunate incidents happens all the times, this is part of this life which we as humans shouldn't ignore and have the courage and patients to face it.

Sadly, one person died today as he was beaten by the police earlier last month, though still unconfirmed but no one can say it is impossible to happen.

Of course I'm not gonna state facts and morals, as the first question I might be asked is: "What if this person was a relative of mine?"; but as a person grows older he/she gets the wisdom by time and can sense the need to stay calm for the society benefit.

The guy died, so his family has the full right to prosecute the responsible personnel who caused this, but they shouldn't ever clash with the country police at all and at any cost! What people fail to sense is the great gift of security we live in Jordan, I've heard many of people saying otherwise, but allow me to tell you "Keep that crap to your selves" It is a safe country and people like these are trying to strip this security away, see the unfortunate photos here:







The pictures speak of the undeniably fact that: facing any incident with anger will only cause mass misery!
One person died, but with this behavior, dozens could get killed, and today confirmed injuries were rushed to hospitals.

Please try to manage your anger, think twice and act wise as they say, keep your self and all others safe.

New Culture

Many times I've heard that the only constant is "The Change" itself.
Will, true if you look around yourself.
But what is amazing is not the changes that occur around us, but the way we react to these changes.

Here are some reactions I could grasp in the past 2 years in my company "Wain", and btw, I guess we could break a genus record in terms of organizational changes!

1. Who cares what happen: I like these people as even if the company switched the whole industry to sell eggs, they just don't care or even talk about it
2. Whatever they want: These people can just cope with anything, they can change their attitude, words, promises and even their looks to what the new order wants.
3. Logically driven people: these people take their time to think before they judge, though sounds nice, but not many can do this, they observe well all the actions, words and even inner thoughts of people before they judge them.
4. Get me out of here: will, simply these people can't stand the unstable climates and cultural changes, I don't blame them at all.

Since we talked about reactions, let me just share some of the changes the "Wain" company had in the past 2 years:

> Strict management:
The CEO is some one you rarely see in his complete floor , and don't wish to see so you don't get scolded; directors sit in their offices and it is a bless if you can have a meeting with, special garage are reserved for them and unbelievable privileges.
Employee should set in the cubicles and just do their job.
You should get in time or else.

> Sahara management:
The generous Arabian culture, the CEO is just an employee like any other
Open doors polices, no special CEO floor anymore, just sit with the people, CEO office opened all the time with coffee, candies and a lot more :) No need to knock the door, just jump in and if you have any idea whether revenue generating or loss generating - what matters is generating factor- just spell it out with some tears and it goes like charm.

Directors meeting is a social gathering that welcomes all people, strange it maintained the "Directors Meeting" name, just say anything, accuse anybody and suggest a financial model while you work in.... never mind!

No cubicles or even directors closed offices, just set in the wild and enjoy your life, chat with the directors as if they were just newbies appointed

Remember the reserved garage for director, it just happened they will park in the streets, no more reserved places.

>Strict management Episode two:
No need to consume time, just replay episode one.

The changes it self though many, weren't the reason I wrote this, yet the strange reaction by people you get to see as mentioned above.
If I want to place my self in the 4 behavioral points above, I think I'm somewhat toward point #4, but without options where to go :)

We know how to live!

End of year panic, as always happens in my beloved company, just happens to pass by!
We need to have this done ASAP!
We need to have it ready and launched ASAP!
We need to get the revenues ASAP!
We need....

I say: You need to shut up and get lost till end of year! Maybe we can get some money if we concentrate on things really bring money instead of ...

Never got stressed as today, the panic is there for a time so, somehow I got used to it, but unfortunately today a new dark face of life happened to pay a visit.

Mr. Boshido:
"What! Promo # 1,000,000 still not launched!!! Why the hell is that!"

Me:
" Will, maybe technical teams haven't finished yet..."

Mr. Boshido:
"No, no no no...., lets go now to the Technical team"
Marching towards the technical team:
Mr. Boshido:
"Why didn't you finish it?"
Tech team:
"The owner delayed the promotion and didn't tell us"
--
Flashback one day before:

Me:
"Hi tech team, did you finish the 1,000,000 Promo?"

Tech team:
"No, but we need some time as this is the fastest we can deliver"

Me:
"Ok, please get back to me max in two days time"
--
Mmmmmm
Unless I was dreaming, didn't I tell the Tech people the day before?
Ok, I didn't inform them with the delay, why isn't ready from their side?


Everybody just seems to work normally as if nothing happening, and even if someone got crashed they will all just watch and say: "Ohhh, 7aram flan...Ma bseer haik yseer m3a"
The good thing that even this crap turned out to be better than nothing as other didn't even bother to ask or check... Stupid me when I will figure that Caring people don't exist in the first place.

"I just to save my self and get safe out of this mess" we can even read this on people faces. But this is how life is becoming so maybe I shouldn't be complaining.

Will I think these people who care nothing to what's happening around surely know how to live.